Wednesday, December 3, 2008

A little more REAL

I'm sure many of you that have followed this blog for a while thought "oh boy" when you read the title. What is she going to rant about now?

My weight.

As many of you know, I started on estrogen about 3 months ago to help with migraines and some other issues I was having. Well, in my opinion, the old estrogen hasn't helped and I am anxious to go back in a few weeks and find out if my doctor feels the same. On top of that, when I went in to start on the estrogen, they weighed me and I was 144. Honestly, I was pretty happy, because I had been hovering around the 150 mark for a while but with all the migraines, I had dropped some weight. Now don't get me wrong, I am not happy at 150. I feel heavy at 150.

Well, three months and a week later, I have gained 13 pounds. Yep, 13 pounds. It ain't cool.

Now, before any of you leave a comment saying "I wish I only weighed 157 pounds" well, that's great. But, it's not great for me. I hate looking at myself naked and my clothes are TIGHT (and not in a good way). So, I'm being real and saying that I am super bummed. I'm putting it out there because I'm being REAL and I'm going to try to loose it, even though I feel the good old Estrogen has a lot to do with it.

Honestly, I've never really struggled with my weight and it sucks. I'm sorry to those of you that do.

That's my real moment for today.


Amy said...

Girl....I am soooooo there with you. After London was born, I lost the weight very quickly! Then I started on anti-depressants for the postpartum crap. Within 6 months, I gained 20 lbs. I've lost 5...but can't seem to shake the other weight. It's horrible for really bothers me. I've gained around 35 lbs. since Denver and I met. Ugh.Do you use some sort of plan to lose weight? What's your strategy??? ('cause I need a plan! or something!)

Anonymous said...

Did your dr check your hormone levels? I have a friend who had female issues and depression, due to hormone imbalance and she found a guy who really helped her. Let me know if you want his number. I've also been using Ylang-Ylang oil drops on my wrists to help with mood. It's also supposed to help regulate the thyroid??? It may just be "suggestive" but it has helped me.

Erin Morgan said...

Gals - I feel you! I've always been overweight and after my first child was born, I've come to realize that the extra weight won't come off by me wishing it away!! I did weight watchers for about 4 months and lost 15lbs. And now, I've been working out for 4 weeks now (every day, one hour a day) and I've lost 4.2lbs and almost 4 inches overall. Brea, I feel the same way you said... hate looking at myself naked in the mirror and my clothes just weren't fitting right. But the exercise makes me feel better about myself and my body and it's ability. Keep working towards your goals... and don't give yourself the excuse that it's just the hormones. Cause regardless if its the hormones that cause you to eat more, or to retain water, it can all come off the same way with a little work! (Also, mention it to your doctor, he might have a suggestion to get the extra weight off too). Regardless, Keep living healthy and striving for that "happy medium" you remember.

Susan said...

Ah Brea- I, like the other ladies who have commented, so feel you girl. I've come to realize that it doesn't matter what other people say or if other people think you look fine, if you don't feel comfortable where you are then you have to do something about it. I have to tell you that the best thing for me has been weight watchers and consistently working out- (yeah- I'm still working on making that happen every week- but I'm much better than I used to be). I still have 17 pounds to go- uugh and its very slow but I'm getting there. You will too. Maybe coming off the estrogen will help too.

Rachel said...

I can relate and understand! I have struggled with my weight since having children and it is tough! I would love to shed about 50 lbs but that will be tough! I too took antidepressants for postpardum depression and gained 25lbs. (I've been off for a few years but that weight is still here!)

I just started reading your blog tonight (you left a comment on mine so I checked out yours! I love the blogging world:) I had a suggestion for you with the estrogen issue. I also get migranes and have some hormone issues but I HATE being on any type of hormone or really Prescription! My Chiropractor said I should take 2-3 TBSP of flax seed every day. I was skepital and said "I have had this problem for Years and all you think I have to do is take some flax seed?" But I tried it and IT WORKS! You have to get the whole seeds and grind them (in a coffee grinder is fine) right before you take them (I put mine in Applesauce) because they have some properties that help women but only works right after being ground(so buying the flax seed powder doesn't work). Just a thought. Sorry for the long post :)

Anonymous said...

Losing weight has never been easy for me. Weight Watchers is my only saving grace. I went lifetime with them back in 2000 and have stayed somewhere b/t 5-10 lbs. at goal all this time. The discipline it took for me to get it off the first time, stuck and I've tried a million other things. I hear they have a new program debuting this weekend. Wanna go find out more? I can go Monday night. Rivergate.

Karin said...

Hi Brea. This is Karin-- Molly Ledford's sister. I have struggled with my weight several times in my life. It is becoming harder the older I get. I will tell you that Weight Watchers & working out has been the only successful way that I have been able to lose weight. I will put it out there though this is VERY hard for me-- I weighed 160 ( I am 5'6) in January and now I am 129. It has been a VERY hard road and I still feel like I could gain it all back. Sorry to be so long winded, but good luck and if you need any advice or support please let me know. :)