Saturday, December 20, 2008

who, what, when, where? oh, and how?

These are the questions I think about when I think about our next adoption. I know I haven't talked about it as much this time. It doesn't consume me. My four beautiful kids do.

Here is a little update on us: Brea is dragging her feet. Really, but for no good reason. J's paperwork is complete, my paperwork is about 90% complete, and then we have to get fingerprints and physicals. I think most of our references are already turned in (now that is amazing!). Once we turn in the above mentioned items, the social worker from CC will meet with J and I individually and then she will come to our house and do a home visit. Then, we will be approved and waiting.

I'm not sure why I'm dragging my feet. Maybe because I can't imagine having another baby right now (not yet anyway). Maybe because I want to get my migraines under control first. Honestly, I just keep feeling like God is telling me to wait and enjoy the process. The first time with Mary Elizabeth, we went through the process like a crazy person. We finished our formal packet in four days and I was constantly so stressed about hurrying up and getting approved that I look back at the whole thing as stressful. I want this time to be different and so far it has been.

Back to my initial questions...
I think about whether we will be blessed with a boy or a girl. J seems to think girl. I think about what she/he will look like. Will he/she be premature like Mary or a fat chunk like my other three were? Will he/she be born here in TN or will we travel to another state? How will we raise the rest of the needed funds? Then, I just sit back and smile because I know my God has it ALL under control.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

I remember all of these thoughts. Steven and I drug our feet for a LONG time. I had a really hard time with it because it really wasn't my choice to drag our feet. :) For some odd reason I wanted to rush and turn it in but "something" wouldn't let me. Looking back I really believe that God ushered our hearts when and where he wanted us to go. I believe we were just in time for August. It was all about the child that God wanted specifically for our family and it was all about his timing. I know that you know all this! I guess it was just cool for me to learn it and to know that I was never in control. :)He will take care of your heart and lead you. I am praying for your family and can't wait to see your new addition!!

Alison said...

I know I haven't talked about it as much this time. It doesn't consume me. My four beautiful kids do.

I love this comment. You do have four beautiful kids that God has graced you with that we all love dearly.

Love, alie

. said...

Thank you for saying hello! Mary Elizabeth is a doll! All of your children are beautiful! Amber shared your blog with me a LONG time ago when you guys first brought Mary Elizabeth home,she was so very tiny! I can't believe how big she is now what a blessing!
We live in White House so I would LOVE to get together for a playdate sometime!! Merry Christmas!