Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Accountable Part 3

My brain is full and yet my time is short.

Sometimes I wish all that I was thinking/praying/worrying/rejoicing about could be magically published on this blog by just thinking about it, but alas, that's not happening anytime soon so I sit here typing wondering where to begin. (Can you tell I really wanted to use the word alas and sound important tonight?)

I still haven't drank a Dr. Pepper. Yep, I still crave them which reminds me to stop in my tracks and pray for several things:

1. The space for the upcoming consignment sale
2. The lady that posted on my blog (see previous post)
3. Those who post on my adoption forums that have been waiting over 2 years. Yes, you read that right...2 years. They have been approved and waiting on bringing home their child for over 2 years. The patience and faith they must have is amazing to me so I pray for peace for them and a speedy phone call telling them their time has come.

I have referenced prayer many times in this blog. It works. It really does.

Today I met with my awesome commercial leasing agent and we went and looked at two potential spaces for the fall consignment sale. At the second site, I had the pleasure of meeting the owner of the building and it looks like we are going to be able to work something out. Hopefully that will be marked off as an answered prayer soon as we work on completing the nitty gritty this week.

On Saturday, we had a yard sale to help Angie raise money for little Abigail to come home from Russia. I should say that I was surprised that someone approached me about my blog and shared with me that she, too, had some issues and was struggling with being real. But I wasn't surprised. Why? Because everyone has issues. I recently told someone that it's not always black and white, that sometimes life is gray and ugly, but you know, I am beginning to understand that I was wrong. I believe our God is a black and white God. He doesn't deal in abstracts, maybes, when I get to it, etc. He laid out a plan for our lives through his son, Jesus Christ, and he EXPECTS us to strive daily to live using the example he gave us which was perfection. Will we fail? YES. But HIS grace is enough and without his compassion, we wouldn't need him or crave that relationship with him.

So, I leave you tonight challenging you to dig deep and clean out the gray and ugly. I'm working on it. The facade of the "old Brea" is being chipped away and getting real is getting easier. How's it going for you guys?

5 comments:

Alison B said...

digging deep. it's challenging. some secrets are so easy to share and others are so full of shame. iron sharpens iron. keep sharpening us with your posts! you rock.

Sarah said...

good job with the Dr. Pepper. I had just thought "I wonder how Brea is doing" so I came on over to see that you had just posted! I'm sorry I missed Sat. (CRAZY day w/ the girls)..do you happen to have any 3T stuff left? We need to do lunch!

Anonymous said...

I started the adoption process here in Australia in Feb 2006. Being realistic (not pessimistic!), I have another 2-5 years to wait. That's normal here. So while I can sympathise for those in the US who have been waiting for 2 years, spare a thought for those of us Down Under. Sigh....

J said...

I was in tears as I read the last comment. My heart goes out to you. I cannot imagine how hard it is to wait 5+ years to bring home your child. I pray that God will give you the strength and patience to make it through.

Jonathan
(Brea's Husband)

Anonymous said...

Hi Jonathan,

I'm really touched by your response to my comment. One of the positive things that has come out of this long, slow process for me is the amazing people I've met along the way and the support and kindness from people I've never met. Justifies all the time I spend reading adoption blogs!!

Thanks.

Amy